things im currently confused by: where my sudden compulsion to drink blood came from and what to call it
Tag: unsanitary //
bittersweet
- water swirls at my feet
- i watch as it turns red
- the sight bittersweet
- from strikes leak
- the crimson liquid of life
- it runs down my legs, shaky and weak
- reminiscent of the veins from which they came
- destroyed by a shaving knife
- it’s oh so bittersweet
- i slowly reach
- and gather the essence on my fingertips,
- grazing the pads against my tongue
- the soft iron drips
- down from my lips
- tasting oh so bittersweet
- this makes me happy, i tell myself
- again and again and again
- but the sight is sickening
- blood dripping from wounds of my own creation
- blood filling my mouth with its metallic flavour
- it’s not right
- it’s not human
- my thighs can barely pass as anything but mounds of scabs and blood
- i can still feel the dried plasma on my lips
- i just want to be soft
- to be normal
- but im nothing but a sorry excuse for a vampire.
it’s bittersweet.
hhholy shit @ me STOP drinking blood imfuck ing kinkshaming
me: maybe I’m not neurodivergent and I’m just faking it
me: literally cuts myself and drinks the blood
me: I don’t do anything that’s not neurotypical